stats- in case anyone is interested?

cw: 116.7lbs
lw: 115lbs
gw:115lbs
ugw:100lbs

Weightless by Mi

Lyrics

Hi, my name is Ana and I'm here to save you
Very smart of you to call me
We will work together and we'll leave no footprints
We'll have wings eventually

I want to embrace you
I will help you to control
I will hurt like hell
I will swallow your sweet soul

It will be nailed to your jawbone
It is painted on the mirror

Stripped to the bone
to the soul to the I don't know
Stripped to the core to the matter
to the flesh and oh!
Stripped to the four in the morning lies
and lullabies
Stripped without clothes without dirt
without baggage without consciousness and you are weightless

So just be a good girl and please follow my rules
Don't forget I'm taking over
Transparent is what you'll be in no time if you're
Taking life in stone cold sober

I want to embrace you
I will make you steal and lie
I will hurt like hell
I will kill you in no time

Everyone's your enemy
You find your worst fears in me

Would i be perfect, yet?

Experiment

The Ana Bible

I am posting this because... Well, I am not sure those closest to me really understand the trauma and disordered thinking I experience. The Ana Bible explains the exact irrational- yet overwhelmingly influencing- thoughts I have; nearly all day, every single day.

This is the part that I think is the most impacting:

"...The Thin Commandments
1.If you aren't thin you aren't attractive. 
2.Being thin is more important than being healthy. 
3.You must buy clothes, cut your hair, take laxatives, starve 
yourself, do anything to make yourself look thinner. 
4.Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty. 
5.Thou shall not eat fattening food without punishing oneself 
afterwards. 
6.Thou shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly. 
7.What the scale says is the most important thing. 
8.Losing weight is good/gaining weight is bad. 
9.You can never be too thin. 
10.Being thin and not eating are signs of true will power and 
success."

Now before you get mad that this site exists- be aware that it is intending to educate people on how an ED takes over. I also find it comforting to read that im not the only one with these thoughts. 

Weight loss...

Well thanks, mom.

Your "pep talk", has let me keep my intake lower than ever before.

I want to shove my head into an oven

Stats

Cw: ? Im scared to weigh myself
Lw: 117.8
Gw: 115
Ugw: 100

house all to myself ALL WEEKEND!

fasting until i pass out and have to call in sick this weekend. >:)