I miss my diet pills...

I feel so weak for wanting them back. i miss the energy, and the lack of hunger- all i do is snack 24/7 now. its so gross. i haven't gotten on a scale yet- but i just know Ive gained weight. im going to get so fat and ugly and awful and i just want to go die in my room alone. i cant do this. im not ready- im too weak...

I wont buy more pills though- because i cant hurt you again... but this is killing me. i just want to be thin! why are you so against it? i am not really that thin anyway. im not in danger. you are overreacting. please let me be thin... please, please, please :'(

stats

 4/11/13
CW: 123.5lbs
Neck: 13 inches
Waist: 26.5 inches
Hips: 32 inches

Making an Anorexia Collage

Using these Photos, I intend on making a collage that will serve as motivation to stay friends with Ana. I've been a horrible friend lately and I need to make it up to her. I can make her proud. I know I can.

CW: 122lbs   :D
GW: 115lbs  (by May 11th)

Easter ana tips

Pick all the bread out of the buns leaving only a shell of crust to eat.
Meat is better than potatoes for your body and are easier to burn off later!
But potatoes are easier to purge!
Always have a drink available (preferably water or coffee because no cals)
Start dancing with younger family members- its an incognito exorcise!

here i am.

I am fat.

a fat fucking loser and no one will ever love the fat girl with daddy issues. no one. you stupid cunt! just stop eating and maybe show a tad bit of self control and you wont be bulging over your pants and having marks left from too tight tops. you fucking disgust me. i hope you die. i hope you slit your wrists and bleed out and die. but, you wont. because you're a big fucking failure. god, the world should do itself a favor and remove you from society. you are nothing. NOTHING!

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