Pick all the bread out of the buns leaving only a shell of crust to eat.
Meat is better than potatoes for your body and are easier to burn off later!
But potatoes are easier to purge!
Always have a drink available (preferably water or coffee because no cals)
Start dancing with younger family members- its an incognito exorcise!
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Easter ana tips
Naked weigh in
I am down to 122LBS!
W00000000000T! ...
Just seven more pounds to my first goal weight!
Bad idea
I fasted all day before the Sum41 concert... i almost passed out a few times. Had to spend a good 1/2 of the concert laying down under the control panels so i wouldnt fall down and get trampled to death. Also- i lost my corset at the concert. Went home in just a bra... >.< oops!
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Went well!
God i missed sex! >:p
Now waiting in line for the Sum41 concert with my ex Robert, and my good friend Libby. :)
New weigh in!
124.0 lbs!!!!
Yay!!!! Im so excited!!!
Only 10 more pounds til my prom goal!
I CAN do this!
Friday, March 29, 2013
Going to sleep with him
Im a cheep slut and im going to sleep with my ex tomorrow before a concert because i want to have him touching me again.
mirror, mirror
This poem means so much to me. its speaks of all my deepest insecurities and hopes. if i were perfect, i would be happy. i would be loved. i would be understood. i would be ENOUGH. its all ive ever wanted... i just want to be enough. enough for you, enough for my family, enough for the colleges, enough for my future.
but im not. i never will be. im worthless.
I bet he is going out tonight with that whore from treatment.
I just know he is going to try and have sex with that slut! I just know it! >:/
...but he is my ex, so i shouldnt care... but i do... :'(
...but he is my ex, so i shouldnt care... but i do... :'(
At new therapists office
Who knows how this is going to go. I am going to try to be honest, but im so scared he will lock me up if he knew I was so suicidal and so obsessed with my weight... :/
Lets just hope he is patient with my fears...
Thursday, March 28, 2013
I am fat.
a fat fucking loser and no one will ever love the fat girl with daddy issues. no one. you stupid cunt! just stop eating and maybe show a tad bit of self control and you wont be bulging over your pants and having marks left from too tight tops. you fucking disgust me. i hope you die. i hope you slit your wrists and bleed out and die. but, you wont. because you're a big fucking failure. god, the world should do itself a favor and remove you from society. you are nothing. NOTHING!
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
so, I am not sure if this will be about recovery- or if it will just be my personal blog of ana struggles.
hello all 0 followers i have accumulated already, its nice to meet you. as lonely as i am; i do not mind one bit if no one ever reads anything i post here. this will be where i will rant, cry, and celebrate as i try to make it through each day. join me if you would like, and if you dont- i dont mind :) i am doing this for me!
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